Trials In Tainted Space Narc
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Toni Bark is an MD who, like too many other MDs, embraced quackery and antivaccine pseudoscience. She’s been a speaker at antivaccine “rallies”; appeared at antivaccine “roundtable discussions“; and even been a featured speaker at the infamous Conspira-Sea Cruise, basically a cruise for conspiracy theorists.The Emotional Involvement Preventive MeasuresChapter 8
The narcissist is typically born into a dysfunctional family. It is characterised by massive denial, both internal (’You do not have a real problem, you are only pretending’) and external (’You must never reveal the family’s secrets to anyone’). Such emotional illness leads to affective and other personality disorders shared by all the members of the family and ranging from obsessive-compulsive disorders to hypochondriasis and depression.
Dysfunctional families are often reclusive and autarkic (self-sufficient). They actively reject and encourage abstention from social contacts. This inevitably leads to defective or partial socialisation and differentiation, and to problems of sexual and self identity.
This monastic attitude is sometimes applied even to the extended family. The members of the nuclear family feel emotionally or financially deprived or threatened by the world at large. They react with envy, rejection, self-isolation and rage in a kind of shared psychosis.
Constant aggression and violence are permanent features of such families. The violence and abuse can be verbal (degradation, humiliation), psychological-emotional, physical, or sexual.
Trying to rationalise and intellectualise its unique position and to justify it, the dysfunctional family emphasises some superior logic it allegedly possesses and its efficiency. It adopts a transactional approach to life and it regards certain traits (e.g., intelligence) as an expression of superiority and as an advantage. These families encourage excellence - mainly cerebral and academic - but only as means to an end. The end is usually highly narcissistic (to be famous/rich/to live well, etc.).
Some narcissists, bred in such households, react by creatively escaping into rich, imagined worlds in which they exercise total physical and emotional control over their environment. But all of them divert libido, which should have been object-oriented, to their own self.
The source of all the narcissist’s problems is the belief that human relationships invariably end in humiliation, betrayal, pain and abandonment. This conviction is the outcome of indoctrination in early childhood by their parents, peers, or role models.
Moreover, the narcissist always generalises. To him, any emotional interaction and any interaction with an emotional component is bound to end ignominiously. Getting attached to a place, a job, an asset, an idea, an initiative, a business, or a pleasure is certain to end as badly as getting involved in a relationship with another person.
This is why the narcissist avoids intimacy, real friendships, love, other emotions, commitment, attachment, dedication, perseverance, planning, emotional or other investment, morale or conscience (which are only meaningful if one believes in a future), developing a sense of security, or pleasure.
The narcissist emotionally invests only in things he feels that he is in full, unmitigated control of: himself and, sometimes, not even that.
But the narcissist cannot ignore the fact that there is emotional content and residual affect even in the most basic activities. To protect himself from these remnants of emotions, these remote threats, he constructs a False Self, grandiose, and fantastic.
The narcissist uses his False Self in all his interactions, getting it ’tainted’ by emotions in the process. Thus the False Self insulates the narcissist from the risks of emotional ’contamination’.
When even this fails the narcissist has a more powerful weapon in his arsenal: the Wunderkind (wonder-boy) mask.
The narcissist creates two masks, which serve to hide him from the world - and to force the world to cater to his needs and desires.
The first mask is the old, worn-out False Self.
The False Self is a special type of Ego. It is grandiose (and, in this sense, fantastic), invulnerable, omnipotent, omniscient, and ’unattached’. This kind of Ego prefers adulation or being feared to love. This Ego learns the truth about itself and its boundaries by being reflected. Other people’s constant feedback (Narcissistic Supply) help the narcissist to modulate and fine tune his False Self.
But the second mask is as important. This is the mask of the Wunderkind.Trials In Tainted Space Naleen Nip
The narcissist, wearing this mask, broadcasts to the world that he is both a child (and therefore vulnerable, susceptible, and subject to adult protection) - and a genius (and therefore worthy of special treatment and of admiration).
Inwardly this mask makes the narcissist less emotionally vulnerable. A child does not fully comprehend and grasp events and circumstances, does not commit himself emotionally, waltzes through life, and does not have to deal with emotionally charged problems or situations such as sex or child rearing.
Being a child, the narcissist is exempt from assuming responsibility and develops a sense of immunity and security. No one is likely to hurt a child or to severely punish him. The narcissist is a dangerous adventurer because - like a child - he feels that he is immune to the consequences of his actions, that his possibilities are unlimited, that everything is allowed without the risk of paying the price.
The narcissist hates adults and is repelled by them. In his mind, he is forever innocent and loveable. Being a child, he feels no need to acquire adult skills or adult qualifications. Many a narcissist do not complete their academic studies, refuse to marry or have children, or even get a driver’s license. They feel that people should adore them as they are and supply them with all the needs that they, as children, cannot themselves secure.
It is precisely because of this precociousness, the built-in contradiction between his (mental) age and his (adult) knowledge and intelligence, that the narcissist is able to sustain a grandiose self at all! Only a child with this kind of intelligence and with this kind of biography and with this kind of knowledge is entitled to feel superior and grandiose. The narcissist must remain a child if he is to feel superior and grandiose.
The problem is that the narcissist uses these two masks indiscriminately. There are situations in his life when one or both of them prove to be dysfunctional, even detrimental to his well-being.
Example: the narcissist dates a woman. At first, he makes use of the False Self in order to convert her into a Secondary Narcissistic Supply Source (SNSS) and to put her to the test (will she abandon/humiliate/betray him once she discovers that his self is confabulated?).
This phase successfully over, the girl is by now a full-fledged SNSS and is committed to sharing her life with the narcissist. But he is unlikely to believe her. His False Self, gratified by the SNSS, ’exits’. It is not likely to re-enter unless there is a problem with the unperturbed flow of Narcissistic Supply.
The Wunderkind mask takes over. Its main goal is to avoid or to mitigate the consequences of a certain emotional injury in the future. It permits the development of emotional involvement but in such a distorted and warped manner that this combination (Wunderkind mask in front - False Self in the background) does indeed lead to betrayal and to the abandonment of the narcissist.
The bridge connecting the two - the False Self and Wunderkind mask - is made of their common preference. They both prefer adulation to love.
Another example: the narcissist gets a job in a new workplace or meets a new group of people in social circumstances. At first, he uses his False Self with the aim of obtaining Primary Narcissistic Supply Source (PNSS) by demonstrating his superiority and uniqueness. This he does by putting on display his intellect and knowledge.
This phase over, the narcissist believes that his superiority is established, securing a constant flow of Narcissistic Supply and Narcissistic Accumulation. His False Self is satisfied and exits the scene. It will not reappear unless the supply is threatened.
It is the turn of the Wunderkind mask. Its goal is to allow the narcissist to establish some emotional involvement without suffering the results of an assured ultimate narcissistic injury or trauma. Again this underlying falsity, this infantilism, provoke rejection, the dismantling of the narcissist’s social frameworks and groups, and the abandonment of the narcissist by friends and colleagues.
To summarise:Trials In Tainted Space Nursery Upgrades
The narcissist has a post-traumatic personality with a tough, sadistic, and rigidly punishing ideal Superego (SEGO).
This contributes to the weakening and subsequent disintegration of the True Ego (TEGO).
The same pathology makes the narcissist create a ’mask’: the False Ego (FEGO).
Its aim is to ensure emotional autarky (self-sufficiency) and to avoid inevitable emotional injuries.
The FEGO prefers adulation, attention, or even fear to a mature adult love relationship.
FEGO is responsible to obtain PNSS and SNSS.
Adulation is secured by displaying superior qualities: intellect and knowledge, in the case of the cerebral narcissist - physical and sexual prowess in the case of his somatic counterpart.
Love and intimacy are perceived as threats by both types of narcissists.
When the target selected by the FEGO is successfully converted into a Narcissistic Source of Supply (NSS) and does not abandon ship after the first few encounters - the narcissist begins to develop a kind of emotional correlate (attachment) and there is some affective investment in the object.
But this attachment comes with a corollary: guaranteed hurt in the future. The narcissist’s sadistic SEGO always attacks the object and makes it abandon the narcissist. The SEGO does it to punish the narcissist.
Anticipating this painful and (potentially) life-threatening phase, the narcissist activates another mask: the Wunderkind mask. This mask does allow for emotions to infiltrate the narcissistic fortress while maintaining impenetrable and successful defences against emotional injury.
Put together, though, these masks cause the very conflicts that they are intended to prevent, the very losses that they are intended to fend off, the very dysphoria, which they were supposed to eliminate.
Their combined actions lead to the necessity to allocate libido to FEGO to obtain new PNSS and SNSS - and the cycle begins anew.
Mental Map # 9
SEGO (ideal, sadistic, tough, punishing, offensive)interacts with a HYPERCONSTRUCT oneof whose components is: the TEGO (really a child).The SEGO interacts with TEGOby exporting to the TEGO its aggressionand importing from it obsessive-compulsive behaviours.SEGO employs EIPM to ensure punishment through loss and hurt.Another component of the Hyperconstruct is the FEGO.FEGO employs the intellect and an array of defence mechanisms.FEGO imports libido from the ID (another component of the Hyperconstruct).FEGO imports drives from the ID.FEGO exports PNSSs and SNSSs to the OBJECTS(partner, spouse, business, money, friends, social framework, etc.).FEGO imports hurt-free losses from OBJECTS(the hurt is neutralised by initiating these losses and abandonment).FEGO (’Wonder’) and TEGO (’Boy’) form Wonderboy, a Mask.The WUNDERKIND MASK deflects the hurtprovoked by the SEGO following losses and abandonment.When PNSSs/SNSSs are lost, FEGO experiencesLoss Dysphoria and Deficiency Dysphoria.FEGO activates the Reactive Repertoire to escape the hurt.Libido is allocated to FEGO to look for new PNSSs and SNSSs.
But what happens if the NSSs (spouse, workplace) insist upon having a meaningful emotional involvement (e.g., the spouse insists upon being loved and upon more intimacy)?
In other words, what happens if someone close wants to penetrate the masks, to see what is (rather who is) behind them?
At this stage the Wunderkind mask is already active. It allows the narcissist to receive without giving, or investing, emotionally. But if the mask is bombarded with emotional demands from the outside, it ceases to function. It becomes a perfect child on the one hand (totally helpless and frightened) and a perfect, machine-like, genius on the other hand (with a defective reality test). The weakening of the mask permits direct contact between SEGO and object, which is subjected now to transformations of aggression.
The object is stunned by the apparently inexplicable change in the narcissist’s mood and behaviour. It tries to weather the storm in the hope that this is a transient phenomenon. Only when the aggression persists does the object abandon the narcissist, thus causing a severe narcissistic injury and forcing upon the narcissist a painful transition to the new situation in which he is devoid of his SNSS. The object flees the SEGO. The narcissist is left feeling very envious of the object because she can avoid the monster that lurks inside him.
The failure of the masks means full emotional involvement, SEGO-originated aggression, and the certainty of abandonment with a full-fledged narcissistic injury, which could even threaten the narcissist’s life.
Another thing to learn from this model is how the narcissist’s attitude to objects changes when he senses a dwindling of the PNSS. The narcissist begins then to rely more heavily on the supply accumulated by the SNSS. He rehashes and recycles the information regarding his accomplishments and his grand moments stored in the SNSS’s memory until they have lost most of their freshness and meaning.
As no new supply is forthcoming because of the gradual disappearance of PNSS, the reservoir is not replenished and becomes stale. The FEGO becomes weakened and undernourished. Its growing infirmity allows for a direct contact between SEGO and objects. This has the same consequences as before. Only this time the SEGO’s aggression is directed at the TEGO as well.
SEGO and the Hyperconstruct (which is the TEGO, the FEGO, the ID, together with the Wunderkind mask) are engaged in constant, energy consuming, warfare to obtain access to objects. The Hyperconstruct gains the upper hand when the FEGO is fortified by Narcissistic Supply coming from a variety of PNSSs and SNSSs.
When SEGO wins, a deep emotional involvement is formed, anxiety is aroused because of the anticipation of the SEGO’s future sadistic actions, and the narcissist engages in compulsive acts to channel the anxiety and to neutralise it. SEGO directs aggression and its transformations at the objects and they react by fighting back, injuring the narcissist in the process. Finally the objects, hurt and dejected, abandon the narcissist, or the common framework (the business, the workplace, the family unit), or change to such a degree that it amounts to emotional abandonment.
The FEGO then experiences a thorough and hazardous narcissistic injury.
To avoid the emotional consequences of a possible victory of the SEGO, the Hyperconstruct activates a series of mechanisms, attitudes, and behaviour patterns. They are all intended to assist the narcissist in ’keeping his distance’ in order to protect him from emotional hurt. The Wunderkind mask causes a considerable (and discernible) infantilisation of the narcissist and a gradual loss of his grasp on reality. When the objects abandon him, the narcissistic injury is thus made more tolerable.
But there is a deeply embedded conflict in the narcissist’s personality.
The SEGO craves for meaningful emotional involvement. Its externalised aggression transformations are most effective precisely when the narcissist is emotionally involved. The effectiveness of its punishment is thus enhanced and the pain is bound to be larger and life threatening.
Deep inside, the SEGO ’believes’ that the narcissist does not deserve to live. The aggression that the narcissist transforms and stores is of lethal proportions. In his childhood, the narcissist wanted the most sacred figures in his life dead and he believes that he deserves to die for it. The SEGO is a constant reminder of this and, thus, it is the narcissist’s executioner.
The Hyperconstruct is assembled by the narcissist at a very early stage in his life precisely to confront this kind of self-destructive impulse. While the self-loathing cannot be eliminated - it can at least be ameliorated and its consequences can be prevented.
The Hyperconstruct protects the narcissist from being emotionally devastated, from carrying the consequences of inevitable betrayal and abandonment too far. It achieves this by putting a distance between the narcissist and his objects so that when the predictable abandonment transpires it is less intolerable. It prevents emotional involvement to avoid potentially dangerous reactions to abandonment.
When the Hyperconstruct weakens (because of the insistence of an object to get emotionally involved), or diverted (when most of the libido is dedicated to look for PNSS), or when the PNSS reservoir is dilapidated - emotional involvement does develop together with transformed aggression directed at the object and which can be traced back to the SEGO.
The fate of the narcissist’s relationships is preordained. The behavioural pair ’emotional involvement-aggression’ is constant and it always leads to abandonment. Only two components can be regulated in this trio (emotional involvement - aggression - abandonment) and they are emotional involvement and abandonment. The narcissist can choose to precipitate and anticipate an act of abandonment by initiating it - or he can choose to fight against emotional involvement and thus avoid being aggressive.
The Hyperconstruct does this by employing a series of ingeniously deceptive Emotional Involvement Preventive Measures (EIPM).
Emotional Involvement Preventive Measures
Personality and Conduct
Lack of enthusiasm, anhedonia, and constant boredomA wish to ’vary’, to ’be free’, to hop from one subject matter or object to anotherLaziness, constantly present fatigueDysphoria to the point of depression leads to reclusiveness, detachment, low energiesRepression of the affect and uniform emotional ’hues’Self-hatred disables capacity to love o
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*RWBY: Trials In Tainted Space by DrGairyuki Fandoms: RWBY, Trials in Tainted Space (Video Game) Explicit; Choose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply; F/F, F/M, Gen, M/M, Multi, Other; Work in Progress; 04 Aug 2019.
*Trials in Tainted Space: Part 1 - Duration: 20:01. TheLoremasterNojah 37,748 views. Mayday Parade - ’In My Head’ w/ lyrics (Punk Goes Pop 3) - Duration: 3:47.
*Trials In Tainted Space Naleen Nip
*Trials In Tainted Space Nursery Upgrades
*Narc Trials In Tainted Space Wiki
*Trials In Tainted Space Naga
*Trials In Tainted Space Narcissus
*Trials In Tainted Space Narcos
Toni Bark is an MD who, like too many other MDs, embraced quackery and antivaccine pseudoscience. She’s been a speaker at antivaccine “rallies”; appeared at antivaccine “roundtable discussions“; and even been a featured speaker at the infamous Conspira-Sea Cruise, basically a cruise for conspiracy theorists.The Emotional Involvement Preventive MeasuresChapter 8
The narcissist is typically born into a dysfunctional family. It is characterised by massive denial, both internal (’You do not have a real problem, you are only pretending’) and external (’You must never reveal the family’s secrets to anyone’). Such emotional illness leads to affective and other personality disorders shared by all the members of the family and ranging from obsessive-compulsive disorders to hypochondriasis and depression.
Dysfunctional families are often reclusive and autarkic (self-sufficient). They actively reject and encourage abstention from social contacts. This inevitably leads to defective or partial socialisation and differentiation, and to problems of sexual and self identity.
This monastic attitude is sometimes applied even to the extended family. The members of the nuclear family feel emotionally or financially deprived or threatened by the world at large. They react with envy, rejection, self-isolation and rage in a kind of shared psychosis.
Constant aggression and violence are permanent features of such families. The violence and abuse can be verbal (degradation, humiliation), psychological-emotional, physical, or sexual.
Trying to rationalise and intellectualise its unique position and to justify it, the dysfunctional family emphasises some superior logic it allegedly possesses and its efficiency. It adopts a transactional approach to life and it regards certain traits (e.g., intelligence) as an expression of superiority and as an advantage. These families encourage excellence - mainly cerebral and academic - but only as means to an end. The end is usually highly narcissistic (to be famous/rich/to live well, etc.).
Some narcissists, bred in such households, react by creatively escaping into rich, imagined worlds in which they exercise total physical and emotional control over their environment. But all of them divert libido, which should have been object-oriented, to their own self.
The source of all the narcissist’s problems is the belief that human relationships invariably end in humiliation, betrayal, pain and abandonment. This conviction is the outcome of indoctrination in early childhood by their parents, peers, or role models.
Moreover, the narcissist always generalises. To him, any emotional interaction and any interaction with an emotional component is bound to end ignominiously. Getting attached to a place, a job, an asset, an idea, an initiative, a business, or a pleasure is certain to end as badly as getting involved in a relationship with another person.
This is why the narcissist avoids intimacy, real friendships, love, other emotions, commitment, attachment, dedication, perseverance, planning, emotional or other investment, morale or conscience (which are only meaningful if one believes in a future), developing a sense of security, or pleasure.
The narcissist emotionally invests only in things he feels that he is in full, unmitigated control of: himself and, sometimes, not even that.
But the narcissist cannot ignore the fact that there is emotional content and residual affect even in the most basic activities. To protect himself from these remnants of emotions, these remote threats, he constructs a False Self, grandiose, and fantastic.
The narcissist uses his False Self in all his interactions, getting it ’tainted’ by emotions in the process. Thus the False Self insulates the narcissist from the risks of emotional ’contamination’.
When even this fails the narcissist has a more powerful weapon in his arsenal: the Wunderkind (wonder-boy) mask.
The narcissist creates two masks, which serve to hide him from the world - and to force the world to cater to his needs and desires.
The first mask is the old, worn-out False Self.
The False Self is a special type of Ego. It is grandiose (and, in this sense, fantastic), invulnerable, omnipotent, omniscient, and ’unattached’. This kind of Ego prefers adulation or being feared to love. This Ego learns the truth about itself and its boundaries by being reflected. Other people’s constant feedback (Narcissistic Supply) help the narcissist to modulate and fine tune his False Self.
But the second mask is as important. This is the mask of the Wunderkind.Trials In Tainted Space Naleen Nip
The narcissist, wearing this mask, broadcasts to the world that he is both a child (and therefore vulnerable, susceptible, and subject to adult protection) - and a genius (and therefore worthy of special treatment and of admiration).
Inwardly this mask makes the narcissist less emotionally vulnerable. A child does not fully comprehend and grasp events and circumstances, does not commit himself emotionally, waltzes through life, and does not have to deal with emotionally charged problems or situations such as sex or child rearing.
Being a child, the narcissist is exempt from assuming responsibility and develops a sense of immunity and security. No one is likely to hurt a child or to severely punish him. The narcissist is a dangerous adventurer because - like a child - he feels that he is immune to the consequences of his actions, that his possibilities are unlimited, that everything is allowed without the risk of paying the price.
The narcissist hates adults and is repelled by them. In his mind, he is forever innocent and loveable. Being a child, he feels no need to acquire adult skills or adult qualifications. Many a narcissist do not complete their academic studies, refuse to marry or have children, or even get a driver’s license. They feel that people should adore them as they are and supply them with all the needs that they, as children, cannot themselves secure.
It is precisely because of this precociousness, the built-in contradiction between his (mental) age and his (adult) knowledge and intelligence, that the narcissist is able to sustain a grandiose self at all! Only a child with this kind of intelligence and with this kind of biography and with this kind of knowledge is entitled to feel superior and grandiose. The narcissist must remain a child if he is to feel superior and grandiose.
The problem is that the narcissist uses these two masks indiscriminately. There are situations in his life when one or both of them prove to be dysfunctional, even detrimental to his well-being.
Example: the narcissist dates a woman. At first, he makes use of the False Self in order to convert her into a Secondary Narcissistic Supply Source (SNSS) and to put her to the test (will she abandon/humiliate/betray him once she discovers that his self is confabulated?).
This phase successfully over, the girl is by now a full-fledged SNSS and is committed to sharing her life with the narcissist. But he is unlikely to believe her. His False Self, gratified by the SNSS, ’exits’. It is not likely to re-enter unless there is a problem with the unperturbed flow of Narcissistic Supply.
The Wunderkind mask takes over. Its main goal is to avoid or to mitigate the consequences of a certain emotional injury in the future. It permits the development of emotional involvement but in such a distorted and warped manner that this combination (Wunderkind mask in front - False Self in the background) does indeed lead to betrayal and to the abandonment of the narcissist.
The bridge connecting the two - the False Self and Wunderkind mask - is made of their common preference. They both prefer adulation to love.
Another example: the narcissist gets a job in a new workplace or meets a new group of people in social circumstances. At first, he uses his False Self with the aim of obtaining Primary Narcissistic Supply Source (PNSS) by demonstrating his superiority and uniqueness. This he does by putting on display his intellect and knowledge.
This phase over, the narcissist believes that his superiority is established, securing a constant flow of Narcissistic Supply and Narcissistic Accumulation. His False Self is satisfied and exits the scene. It will not reappear unless the supply is threatened.
It is the turn of the Wunderkind mask. Its goal is to allow the narcissist to establish some emotional involvement without suffering the results of an assured ultimate narcissistic injury or trauma. Again this underlying falsity, this infantilism, provoke rejection, the dismantling of the narcissist’s social frameworks and groups, and the abandonment of the narcissist by friends and colleagues.
To summarise:Trials In Tainted Space Nursery Upgrades
The narcissist has a post-traumatic personality with a tough, sadistic, and rigidly punishing ideal Superego (SEGO).
This contributes to the weakening and subsequent disintegration of the True Ego (TEGO).
The same pathology makes the narcissist create a ’mask’: the False Ego (FEGO).
Its aim is to ensure emotional autarky (self-sufficiency) and to avoid inevitable emotional injuries.
The FEGO prefers adulation, attention, or even fear to a mature adult love relationship.
FEGO is responsible to obtain PNSS and SNSS.
Adulation is secured by displaying superior qualities: intellect and knowledge, in the case of the cerebral narcissist - physical and sexual prowess in the case of his somatic counterpart.
Love and intimacy are perceived as threats by both types of narcissists.
When the target selected by the FEGO is successfully converted into a Narcissistic Source of Supply (NSS) and does not abandon ship after the first few encounters - the narcissist begins to develop a kind of emotional correlate (attachment) and there is some affective investment in the object.
But this attachment comes with a corollary: guaranteed hurt in the future. The narcissist’s sadistic SEGO always attacks the object and makes it abandon the narcissist. The SEGO does it to punish the narcissist.
Anticipating this painful and (potentially) life-threatening phase, the narcissist activates another mask: the Wunderkind mask. This mask does allow for emotions to infiltrate the narcissistic fortress while maintaining impenetrable and successful defences against emotional injury.
Put together, though, these masks cause the very conflicts that they are intended to prevent, the very losses that they are intended to fend off, the very dysphoria, which they were supposed to eliminate.
Their combined actions lead to the necessity to allocate libido to FEGO to obtain new PNSS and SNSS - and the cycle begins anew.
Mental Map # 9
SEGO (ideal, sadistic, tough, punishing, offensive)interacts with a HYPERCONSTRUCT oneof whose components is: the TEGO (really a child).The SEGO interacts with TEGOby exporting to the TEGO its aggressionand importing from it obsessive-compulsive behaviours.SEGO employs EIPM to ensure punishment through loss and hurt.Another component of the Hyperconstruct is the FEGO.FEGO employs the intellect and an array of defence mechanisms.FEGO imports libido from the ID (another component of the Hyperconstruct).FEGO imports drives from the ID.FEGO exports PNSSs and SNSSs to the OBJECTS(partner, spouse, business, money, friends, social framework, etc.).FEGO imports hurt-free losses from OBJECTS(the hurt is neutralised by initiating these losses and abandonment).FEGO (’Wonder’) and TEGO (’Boy’) form Wonderboy, a Mask.The WUNDERKIND MASK deflects the hurtprovoked by the SEGO following losses and abandonment.When PNSSs/SNSSs are lost, FEGO experiencesLoss Dysphoria and Deficiency Dysphoria.FEGO activates the Reactive Repertoire to escape the hurt.Libido is allocated to FEGO to look for new PNSSs and SNSSs.
But what happens if the NSSs (spouse, workplace) insist upon having a meaningful emotional involvement (e.g., the spouse insists upon being loved and upon more intimacy)?
In other words, what happens if someone close wants to penetrate the masks, to see what is (rather who is) behind them?
At this stage the Wunderkind mask is already active. It allows the narcissist to receive without giving, or investing, emotionally. But if the mask is bombarded with emotional demands from the outside, it ceases to function. It becomes a perfect child on the one hand (totally helpless and frightened) and a perfect, machine-like, genius on the other hand (with a defective reality test). The weakening of the mask permits direct contact between SEGO and object, which is subjected now to transformations of aggression.
The object is stunned by the apparently inexplicable change in the narcissist’s mood and behaviour. It tries to weather the storm in the hope that this is a transient phenomenon. Only when the aggression persists does the object abandon the narcissist, thus causing a severe narcissistic injury and forcing upon the narcissist a painful transition to the new situation in which he is devoid of his SNSS. The object flees the SEGO. The narcissist is left feeling very envious of the object because she can avoid the monster that lurks inside him.
The failure of the masks means full emotional involvement, SEGO-originated aggression, and the certainty of abandonment with a full-fledged narcissistic injury, which could even threaten the narcissist’s life.
Another thing to learn from this model is how the narcissist’s attitude to objects changes when he senses a dwindling of the PNSS. The narcissist begins then to rely more heavily on the supply accumulated by the SNSS. He rehashes and recycles the information regarding his accomplishments and his grand moments stored in the SNSS’s memory until they have lost most of their freshness and meaning.
As no new supply is forthcoming because of the gradual disappearance of PNSS, the reservoir is not replenished and becomes stale. The FEGO becomes weakened and undernourished. Its growing infirmity allows for a direct contact between SEGO and objects. This has the same consequences as before. Only this time the SEGO’s aggression is directed at the TEGO as well.
SEGO and the Hyperconstruct (which is the TEGO, the FEGO, the ID, together with the Wunderkind mask) are engaged in constant, energy consuming, warfare to obtain access to objects. The Hyperconstruct gains the upper hand when the FEGO is fortified by Narcissistic Supply coming from a variety of PNSSs and SNSSs.
When SEGO wins, a deep emotional involvement is formed, anxiety is aroused because of the anticipation of the SEGO’s future sadistic actions, and the narcissist engages in compulsive acts to channel the anxiety and to neutralise it. SEGO directs aggression and its transformations at the objects and they react by fighting back, injuring the narcissist in the process. Finally the objects, hurt and dejected, abandon the narcissist, or the common framework (the business, the workplace, the family unit), or change to such a degree that it amounts to emotional abandonment.
The FEGO then experiences a thorough and hazardous narcissistic injury.
To avoid the emotional consequences of a possible victory of the SEGO, the Hyperconstruct activates a series of mechanisms, attitudes, and behaviour patterns. They are all intended to assist the narcissist in ’keeping his distance’ in order to protect him from emotional hurt. The Wunderkind mask causes a considerable (and discernible) infantilisation of the narcissist and a gradual loss of his grasp on reality. When the objects abandon him, the narcissistic injury is thus made more tolerable.
But there is a deeply embedded conflict in the narcissist’s personality.
The SEGO craves for meaningful emotional involvement. Its externalised aggression transformations are most effective precisely when the narcissist is emotionally involved. The effectiveness of its punishment is thus enhanced and the pain is bound to be larger and life threatening.
Deep inside, the SEGO ’believes’ that the narcissist does not deserve to live. The aggression that the narcissist transforms and stores is of lethal proportions. In his childhood, the narcissist wanted the most sacred figures in his life dead and he believes that he deserves to die for it. The SEGO is a constant reminder of this and, thus, it is the narcissist’s executioner.
The Hyperconstruct is assembled by the narcissist at a very early stage in his life precisely to confront this kind of self-destructive impulse. While the self-loathing cannot be eliminated - it can at least be ameliorated and its consequences can be prevented.
The Hyperconstruct protects the narcissist from being emotionally devastated, from carrying the consequences of inevitable betrayal and abandonment too far. It achieves this by putting a distance between the narcissist and his objects so that when the predictable abandonment transpires it is less intolerable. It prevents emotional involvement to avoid potentially dangerous reactions to abandonment.
When the Hyperconstruct weakens (because of the insistence of an object to get emotionally involved), or diverted (when most of the libido is dedicated to look for PNSS), or when the PNSS reservoir is dilapidated - emotional involvement does develop together with transformed aggression directed at the object and which can be traced back to the SEGO.
The fate of the narcissist’s relationships is preordained. The behavioural pair ’emotional involvement-aggression’ is constant and it always leads to abandonment. Only two components can be regulated in this trio (emotional involvement - aggression - abandonment) and they are emotional involvement and abandonment. The narcissist can choose to precipitate and anticipate an act of abandonment by initiating it - or he can choose to fight against emotional involvement and thus avoid being aggressive.
The Hyperconstruct does this by employing a series of ingeniously deceptive Emotional Involvement Preventive Measures (EIPM).
Emotional Involvement Preventive Measures
Personality and Conduct
Lack of enthusiasm, anhedonia, and constant boredomA wish to ’vary’, to ’be free’, to hop from one subject matter or object to anotherLaziness, constantly present fatigueDysphoria to the point of depression leads to reclusiveness, detachment, low energiesRepression of the affect and uniform emotional ’hues’Self-hatred disables capacity to love o
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